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Ok..i fake my laughter my happiness today..everything is FAKE.. cuz i cannot find anything to make me happy at all.. i cannot take it anymore..i need to blog..i need to voice out my sorrows..my sadness..

Thinking of having my lunch wib my dearest friends today after the lessons..but.. what i got.. i see alot of unreasonable people here... ordered drinks.. the uncle was slow.. he scolded us why never come and take..he no time serve us..7 cups onli what.. eat finish still haven finish..slow lor.. what service is that.. sugar cane wib lemon.. i was expecting a lemon lor.. den i ask him..uncle where's the lemon..then he scold me..say why everybody say nice to drink i say not nice..where's the link?! Bastard lor.. say his son everyday take 20 bucks from him treat gals eat..my problem.. i don't know your son lor.. den the cleaner.. calaine haven eat finish lor..den throw away.. horrible lor they.. den i ask that aunty say why throw..she say we nv tell...u never ask tell u what.. who so free look at u do things.. we busy arguing with the uncle lor.. damn angry sia.. when Singaporean become lke that.. all uncles and aunties.. go buy magazine.. gif one uncle scold say wan buy faster buy..dun block the way..hello! .. we are not even blocking ur way lor..u walk pass den say de lor..and that pathway is not urs lor..argh!!! i hate them.. wanted to make myself happier de..Now wat..sad plus anger..shit them la..

I really never expect i will have such ending lor..plan for my future..all nice nice liao le.. everything gone..i dun see a point for me staying in this world.. i asked my mum why did she give birth to me..i was at the abortion centre le...why not continue.. why they forgo the idea.. life is so miserable.. my family already got alot problems le..money money money.. everyday talk about money..now i even lost my dearest boy.. i onli have this blog to complain to..at least..it wun ignore me..Really very xin ku..very very xin ku...

I dun know whether you will see this or not..but i want to tell you..I will wait..I WILL..